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Can't find you

·                     Can't seem to find you

·                     I look in your eyes
·                     I kiss you or even hug you and still can't find you!

·                     Where did you go?

·                     When did you change?

·                     Have you noticed me or ever wonder just how I’m feeling?

·                     Probably not!!

·                     You’re lost in how you feel and just can't seem to find a way past the way you feel.

·                     Snap out of it, I am getting closer to just giving up on you.

·                     To many changes given

·                     To many chances given

·                     Too many tears shed also pain, and the memories of what you said or did still stuck deep down in my heart.

·                     I promise I’m closer to make you happy, give you what you always wanted by just simply leaving without a goodbye.
                Soon, one day we will become a distant memory to each other

How

How could my body, soul and heart ever speak again? Could I ever love again after one disappointment to another; believing, wanting to love and trust! My compassion for another is just not there anymore, but to look for another love, I think not! I will take my time no matter what comes my way. But one last thing, I will never lose hope.

I Remembered

  • Today As I Walked I Remembered,
  • The Feeling Of Being Loved,
  • Being Held So Tight With The Way You Looked At Me

  • As I Walked I Felt The Warmth Of Your Presence Embrace Me
  • I Felt You, Just Today As I Walked
  • I Remembered

By my side

  • When it rains how I love the smell of freshness and you by my side, sitting out watching from above enjoying the simple things in life we both enjoy so much wishing time would stop, sometimes I think I’m dreaming but all I have to do is turn to the side and to see your eyes that are so clear, so beautiful that when I close my eyes for a split second; I can still see your eyes with a different story you each and every day!

Choices

  •           Our love my love, our memories we’ve built together, how I will never forget, you still wait, I just can't, it was a dream. The one thing is that when I close my eyes I see yours, I see your smile and when it rains I wrap my arms around my body so tight always thinking of just how I felt beside you, thinking it would last forever. My choice, my mistake, my lost love alone, waiting thinking we could still make it. I’m sorry; I made a mistake letting you go, just thinking that I was doing the right thing.

My one

·                     To My one and only true love: To the one that makes my heart beat every day, how I adore you with my all. My love for you is so strong that I can't even explain.

·                      The on going motivation you feed me day in and day out unconsciously.
     You don't even have to be near, the love you have for me feeds me anywhere, even while I'm here.

How much longer

 How much longer can I go on? My heart so drained, my words that come out of my mouth no more. The sweet smell of coffee in the morning, the way I feel, every morning of never ending happiness. You have me singing, I look forward to every day by your side, I can’t wait till the days go by it gets closer to being by your side, gets closer to having my heart satisfied oh how I miss you! I think of you all day every second, oh how I miss you terribly. I long for a family, a home, just something of importance in my life which is you I love you.

Out Of Control

MY heart my whole body out of control, just to feel your touch, your love. Your warmth, my heart, my whole body pumps so hard with love, my pulse ever raising so hard with love going through my veins. My heart my whole body breathes you. Your words compassion and you my daily motivation. I know I am in love with you as you are in love with me

The First Time

When you held me for the first time I knew: The look of excitement desire and love. The overflowing questions of the first steps of a beautiful beginning, Impatiently awaiting the first kiss, holding hands for the first time. The endless butterflies in my stomach, nervously awaiting night to fall.

Something Sweet

Something sweet something of importance, something that makes you whole, makes me feel like a woman you; you’re as sweet as the mint I savor in my mouth, oh so very satisfying as you are. You are as important to me as breathing that sweet comfort I find in your arms. You make me whole because of the love, that amazing love that embraces us as one, the one thing that I’ve never felt was someone making me feel like a woman, a beautiful woman that found a home in your soft gentle arms and a home in your heart.

Left empty

The coffee left empty; no coffee brewing in the morning, still waiting for the cup of coffee in bed. I hear your voice calling for me, I hear you and look for you but I don’t see you. I was your princess and you were my prince. The kind words, I need most now today and forever. I don’t hear them. The compassion I need at this moment, I don’t feel your hand. Only your hand led me to happiness. I see you and I reach for you but you’re not there. Your heart, you handed me in my hands everyday that meant so much, and felt so loved. Where are you? Can you see me in your dreams, can you hear me calling for you, I’m calling you with all my love that I had and still have. But you’re not here. I can’t breathe it hurts every time I inhale and exhale knowing you’re not here. I can’t see with such hurt and confusion, my tears are filling my eyes. Questioning can I move on? Could I love as much as I once loved you? How do I begin? How do I let go of you, your love, understanding and compassion. How? I just realized as I looked around the room, another love. Realized, other loves will never compare to yours. You respected, understood, with the compassionate love you once gave me.

The excitement

·       The excitement of being by your side, when we go out for the evening. I am so ready to go home even though our evening out hasn’t begun. You have just that special way of surprising me in some way. The intimacy, the love, the passionate kisses you leave imbedded in my body every single day! The things you tell me in between, the beginning and at the end, that my memory and heart hold on to with such passion.

·       Your silliness , your soft hands that run up and down my body and feels oh so amazing, feels just like the first time every time. When our bodies press together, the instant fire we create that grows stronger and stronger each and every day. Your long slow passionate kisses that run from the top of my body to the tip of my toes. You pleasure my body with such burning love that leaves no part unmissed.

Do you hear me

·       Do you hear me, do you see me? I am here in front of you begging you silently with tears filling my eyes and my heart in my hand. I need you, I need you to help me please out of the emptiness I feel, I am sinking more and more into a deep depression with no way out. I reach for your hand and you turn away you push me away, your too busy caught up with you they way you feel, only what you want and what you need. I feel like I’m losing you little by little, you can’t I need your love, help help I need your help, can’t you see past the way you feel, I love you hold me you fool. I stand beside you and you don’t even care. You don’t listen to me I try and try to speak to. I pray it will make it to your heart and it doesn’t, it just doesn’t, why? I smile a smile that I just don’t feel I see it you see it but it’s broken, my heart hurts, it cry’s for your help. I talk to you through my eyes and you don’t listen. I stand by your side I listen to your every, want dreams, goals, and problems, “what about me”

·       You forgot about me and you don’t even care or realize it. I stand by your every need. I am strong but I am breaking. You said you promised time away time alone but you get caught up with work and you stress and stress and take it out on me. You always push me to the side please please grab my hand, hold me, I will forget and forgive you I adore you with my everything. What happen to all the little things that mattered so much to me, and now I get nothing, just pushed to the side. I see you don’t you see me how my heart aches, just asking for your help. I see you, hear you but you are just not listening to me my heart my every need the little things. Hear me please listen to me all I need is a sincere smile, a kiss and to know you know I exist.


Your precious love

·       They way you walk towards me with that sway that makes my whole body hot, the twinkle in your eye you walking towards me. Your touch, the way you run your hard working hands all over my body, you know my body inside and out. The pause, you grab my hand so loving while looking at me in my eyes before you tell me you love me. The way you bite your lip while thinking, when you look at me with love while i am getting ready in the mirror, the way your eyes follow me across the room to where you are. It doesn't matter where we are your attention is me and never do your eyes wonder. Your plentiful kisses that say much more than a four letter word, you are love always always. The way your hands run across my waist, the feeling, the love, my everything.

·       The way you look in those jeans, your body, the way you make love to me, the way you talk, your soft heartfelt words that linger through my head body and soul all day. The good morning and the goodnight kiss that makes me long for more. The shape of your lip’s that I run my fingers through and know like a map. The long talks, the communication, the unity. It doesn't matter where we are in the world; your precious love carries me through it all.

I dream with you

  I dream with you, holding your hand running through the field of love, feeling the wind embracing us making us feel as one, the sweet smell of flowers and love lingering through our sense of smell, the feeling of love that keeps growing. I dream you’re holding me while you’re talking through your eyes, never wanting this dream to end, the intense emotions, the sweet surrender, the kisses, the long walks and the journey, hand and hand forever, it’s just not a dream it’s a special kind of dream.

You're not here

  You’re not here but I hold you near, when I think of you I smile remembering the joys of life you bring to mind, even though you’re not near you’re love is always here.

Absence

The absence of your presence, oh so disturbing to my heart, love and soul, My breathing oh so hard to do, my beating heart beating ever so slow, my motivation for each day is oh so not there. My love waiting for the day I return

The things you say

  The things you say do you hear yourself? You jerk! I sit here and listen to your never ending complaining, I sit there and I analyze you and it takes me forever just to get a sincere stare, smile, or something helpful to ease my heart from your damn mouth. I do not get mad anymore I expect it! You should treat me like I am your everything but who am I to tell you what to do you selfish man! I now know what I want and I do see things much clearer and it does not include you!!

Ha

  Your eyes so brown and dreamy as chocolate, the way you look at me with the desire of holding me. The color of your skin that’s so tantalizing, your smile that goes on in my mind and heart all day wanting more, awaiting for that smile that gorgeous smile. My heart, my heart flutters and skips a beat just awaiting your presence

Tears

Your absence oh how I need, crave, and wish you were near. My eyes fill with tears as my heart sinks with the reality of feeling the solitude. I glance in the mirror my tears running down my face ever so fast as I realize I am not where I am suppose to be

Your Look

The look your look! Your sincere look, the love you feed me off your warmth, the warmth of your hands, body and soul.

 When I’m with you I feel whole, so whole I feel that when I breathe in I forget to breathe out , Your voice ever so loving, never do your words hurt, your words of strength, your love that feeds my starving soul, 

Drained

  How much longer can I go on? My heart so drained, my words that come out of my mouth no more. The sweet smell of coffee in the morning, the way I feel, every morning of never ending happiness. You have me singing, I look forward to every day by your side, I can’t wait till the days go by it gets closer to being by your side, gets closer to having my heart satisfied oh how I miss you! I think of you all day every second, oh how I miss you terribly. I long for a family, a home, just something of importance in my life which is you !

Boots

Your smile ever so sweet, the way your jeans fit, the way you walk in your boots, your body language that makes me skip a breath, the awaiting to breathe you in and out. Just loving that crease in your pants that you wear so properly that goes from the bottom of your pants to the top of your zipper. Just watching you walk oh so satisfying.

Your Kisses

My kisses, my hugs, your hugs and kisses; I will remember that passion that fire that burned endlessly thinking it would never have ended. How my heart thought it could never move on. My heart stopped, I cried, I prayed for your return: My prayer never answered, but one last thing; my heart never moved on, holding on to a little hope, that maybe one day, I will find my true love!

Creases



The love we made


The caressing, the kissing


Your kisses said it all


How your kisses love


The love making between us


How your every touch still run's


Through my body


Your memory that I recorded


How I close my eyes and just sit back


And remember


My breathing ever so perfect


I lay in bed and still feel the indention


You use to make when you


Came to bed


Instead of opening my eyes


I choose to keep them closed


Closed my eyes so tight


As I lay


I turn and as I turned


I felt your sweet breath upon


My neck remembering


The goose bumps I felt every single night


The unconditional love you fed me


Day in and day out


How your hands felt


The softness, the deep creases i felt


The palm of your hands


Running across my belly


Every night


How comfortable I feel in your arms.


The respect, the love, the deep creases


In your beautiful eyes


How I miss you how I'll always


Feel you next to me


How one day we will re-unite


In that special place


Called paradise which will make us


Untouchable.


Your love, your memory


All the goodness of your heart


And love will never fade


No one will ever compare to you,


Your beautiful love


I love you forever until the day


I reach for your hand


We will walk hand in hand


And never have to part.

You Only You

You only you
I see in my dreams
I walk I feel you

I feel you
I feel your hand holding mine
You
Your never ending love
Your silliness

I laugh
I live
I live for you only you



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